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Garrrrrrrrhg! I hate money!! I hate it so much! It ruins my day! It stresses out my life! It makes me yell at my husband, (o yeah, and I hate PMS too!) >.< I just need to vent or I'm going to punch a hole in my cubicle wall!

All I wanted was a baby. Yeah it wasn't planned, but I was so happy to be pregnant, and so was my husband. Then I miscarried. So now instead of a baby I have $2000 in medical bills, which would have been covered on the Oregon Health Plan, but I can't get OHP now, because I'm not pregnant anymore. Too top it all off we have $5 in our bank account, and pay day isn't til the 20th. I have 2 more bills to pay, but those can wait til the end of the month I guess. They have to. I can't ask anyone else for money, I already owe money to 3 different people, plus the hospital. (I am never going to the ER ever again!)

Right now I just want to go to sleep and not think about anything. I try not to vent like this on here, but I can't concentrate at work right now! How did this happen? How did we get so behind? Where did all our money go? Why is life so hard sometimes? I don't know who I'm asking, and I know this journal entry won't fix anything, but at least I have vented. I promise I won't do that again anytime soon. *sigh*
  • Mood: Unhappy
  • Drinking: Tea that was hot, but is now cold. T.T
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NikKiDWolF Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2010  Student General Artist
Omg that's rough. I'm sorry for your loss. And I know that thing will get better to. And what's the big deal about money? everyone's (rich wise) is being greedy over green paper that basically has no value unless it is to be spent. You're health plan seems horrible, not covering that bill since you're no longer pregnant. You should get a stress ball and squeeze it hard. Sometimes that makes me forget my issues. or you can do a hobby that you really like, like drawing or creating things or making or listening to music, etc... but soon your problems will go away and you'll be fine. And try again!
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rockachica2 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2010
Day by day. I know things will eventually get better, but it sure gets stressful living month to month, not knowing if I have enough money to pay bills or buy food. But things are looking up. In 2 months my husband will have a new job that pays way better, and hopefully by September I will have insurance through my new job, if all goes well. I have to stay positive! God will provide, He always does. Even in the darkest night, He leads me through to a beautiful sunrise. :)
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NikKiDWolF Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2010  Student General Artist
That is so true! Keep the faith. Everything will be alright and your situation will become better. I know it will. :D
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DJ-David-Jordan Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
2000 dollars!? Whole freaking cow! D8 Why didn't you tell me about this sooner!? It makes all my little petty things seems like a speck! SPECK!
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rockachica2 Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2010
I tried to ignore the fact that I have medical bills, but for the sake of my credit (and not wanting to get sent to the credit claims peoples) I went into the samaratin financial building, and they handed me a copy of all my bills. And that's just samaratin. I still have to figure out what I owe my regular doctor and the lab where I had all my blood tests done. I really hate money. I'm hoping I can get some financial aid on the ER bill at least.

Your problems are just as important, and just as stressful too. We all have our crap, lol. Money is crap!! Your problems are never a speck to me. I wish I could make all our problems go away. By the way, have who is teaching you to drive? How is it going? :)

On a good note, I have one bit of hopeful news. Chicho talked to a guy at Church who has houses he rents, and he is fixing one up for us. We get to move in September, if we like it. It is $500 a month and 2 bedrooms and a garage! I wanted the 3 bedroom one, but this one is $100 cheaper, so I think we may take it. It is only 2 streets away from where we live now. Next time I see him, I will ask him if he has any 1 bedroom ones, and I will let you know.

"Life is like driving, sometimes your the windshield, and sometimes your the bug." lolz, I feel like a bug. >.<

That was a long reply, lolz, sorry. ^_^
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DJ-David-Jordan Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
yeah well I tried ignoring my medical bills too, it never really works out Hun, nope. The best you can do is talk to them and after seeing how much help you can get on them, set up a payment plan, most places are pretty lax on how much you pay on your bills a month, least they were with me. As long as you KEEP up on them, I sometimes got a little bit behind and they got sick of me lol. I bet you could work out maybe paying like 50 or so bucks a month, I mean it will take FOREVER to pay off but it is better than nothing right? I think anything related to your pregancy should have been covered even if your child didn't make it, you were still pregant and they should have covered it, what kind of heartless people don't cover medical of when someone loses a child?

Maybe they are, but I am able to take stress in more of a stride than normal people I guess, because I am almost always stressed, but it doesn't seem to effect me much, or I'm just dumb? Heh. Money is crap, you need it or you don't make it anywhere and it's never free. We totally need to find a money tree that would be freaking awesome...or win a random huge lmp sum of money from some contest we never even entered but won anyway. I wish I could make all our friends problems just poof! Yours speically.
And my Grandma and my Mother are giving me lessons, I know how I am just you know, a freaking spaz behind the wheel because I'm scared out of my mind lol.

That is some hopefully news, I hope that works out well for you. The only thing about a house rather than a apartment in my cause it I only have one income and I need to have some utilities covered in the rent, and most homes don't have utilities ioncluded, not that I don't like the offer, but if you do hear of a house with utilities included then your like, freaking amazing.

And I am like that little bug that hit the windsheild about 50 miles back and is stuck there and still alive. XD Suffer little buggy suffer.

That was a long reply? Not really I can really get into LONG replies if given the chance that was rather short. 8D And no problem. I hardly ever get any messages so the longer the better, gives me something to do lol. Love you. :heart:
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DragonSiege Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
times like this calls for a really comfy bed, a snuggly blanket, and a movie that guarentees sleep....always works for me, that or i do that whole work out through the pain thing.....for some reason getting on a tread mill until im almost dead makes me forget my issues.Hope things get better soon :silentkitty:
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rockachica2 Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2010
You know, I think I might try the work out till I pass out thing. It may not help with the bills, but at least it will help me to let out some steam. Thank you. :)
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DragonSiege Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
anytime :XD:
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Warlama Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
hey dont worry about freaking out on here, if you need to let off some steam feel free to send me a note, i will be happy to help you in any way i can
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